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December 9th, 2009

11:51 am - wed-nes-day. as i'm sitting here rushing to finish my social theory journals that may or may not be due today (syllabus and email confusion), i'm listening to a live daft punk cd that i got from a coworker of mine yesterday. it reminds of a time when i listened to daft punk A LOT, especially when doing homework, or playing video games, or even just sleeping. the music is sooooo good. so good on the ears. lets me escape into my brain and just soak up tunes. it's a great feeling listening to this cd. ha. i guess that's why i like trance music. i don't care what people say about it. i like it. it's good background noise. i woke up at 4:30am, and considered that to be oversleeping. sad? pathetic? horrible? it's been almost 2 weeks. haven't heard from my peace corps recruiter yet. i'll email monday if i don't hear from her. i understand she's busy and i'm sure she's trying to find spots for hundreds of people, so you know, i'm trying to be patient. Current Mood: awake

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December 8th, 2009

11:54 am - article reading. i'm reading an article for my social movements class that i can actually relate to. it discusses why people join social movements, and then fall out. and i'm reading this and i'm just saying to myself "oh, that's me. here's why:" and it's kind of funny/sad. i don't mind losing friends for what i believe. i don't mind not having the best job in the world for how i look. i don't mind not eating everything on this god damned planet just to please my appetite. kyle and i always get into these heated discussions. it's probably a weekly event. last night was about our two roommates moving out for the summer, and finding people for subleasers. it's not our responsibility, it's our roommates'. but it wouldn't be bad if we found our friends to move in. a coworker friend of mine was asking about places to live so i told him our situation. and then kyle mentioned maybe his brother and a friend from back home (who is transfering here next year) might move in. and then kyle (who always sucks at choosing words) said "it's not like we're only going to hang out with eachother and not you." which was a lie, because kyle always does shit like that when it comes to his friends back home. which is fine, because my friends that i have elsewhere are the people i'd rather hang out with, too. and then i said "well, that's cool. i don't really like any of your friends anyways." which is true, i don't like his friends. why? because his friends are low lifes. and they drink. a lot. and they think it's cool. and they put pressure on kyle to drink, which i think is stupid. so kyle responds with "yeah, i see that a lot. i don't know why." and i said "it's because they all like to drink, kyle. and you should know by now that i don't lie to people about how i feel about them." and i'll probably always be like that. which is fine. i don't like lying. and i don't mind being blunt. anyways.. almost done with japanese courses for the rest of my life! i'm excited, because i don't really like the japanese program here. it's not as fun as high school was. almost done with french, too! though, i don't know if my recruiter is nominating me for a french speaking country or not. mmm, done writing for now. Current Mood: bored

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December 7th, 2009

01:09 am - Lists are good. -a coworker/friend of mine asked me what there is to do in Muncie. I told him nothing. I lied. You can drink and party. But that's it. I hate this place. -I'm tired of people here. I have a few friends here. And only a few of them have passion. I'm tired of being around people with no passion. -I miss PA and my wonderful friends there. I truely love them deeply. -school is almost out for the semester. Just a few more tough assignments and grades to get through and then I'm done. With some of the most horrid professors I have ever had. -as much as I make fun of going home so much because they are little bitches, I'm really excited to go home for x-mas eve and x-mas. I haven't been home since the beginning of September. This has been the longest I've ever been away. I miss my cat, I miss my dogs, I miss my stomping grounds I guess. Ha. -I had myself a day long project runway season 2 marathon today. All by myself. I really wanted someone to snuggle with in my bed and watch it with me. -today, Monday, makes day 5 of veganism. I love it. I feel great. Current Mood: rushed

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November 29th, 2009

02:07 am - counting down. i suppose i saw this coming. i've explained the progression to myself and to others before. i'm setting the date. friday. this friday. december 4th. goodbye meat. goodbye. though, i may have to take a sabbatical if i get accepted into the peace corps and don't end up going somewhere like thailand, cambodia, or india. i'm alright with that. this will be a change. change is good. embrace change. also, set your goals in cincinnati on january 26th. i'm going. fuck yes i'm going. even if they are opening for motion city soundtrack..lame. but i'm going. and when i buy my ticket i'm buying two. so i can force someone to go with. ha. EDIT: go big or go home. vegan. friday. shall be epic. Current Mood: complacent

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November 26th, 2009

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November 18th, 2009

06:32 am - late night? no, early morning. a friend of mine had a near death experience. i thought everything was cool, but now i'm realizing everything is not cool. so i did a bit of research. i found that after a near death experience, one can have a change in personality and/or a different outlook on life. one can/will have a greater appreciation for life, higher self-esteem, greater compassion for others, a heightened sense of purpose and self-understanding, desire to learn, elevated spirituality, greater ecological sensitivity and planetary concern, a feeling of being more intuitive. changes may also include: increased physical sensitivity; diminished tolerance to light, alcohol, and drugs; a feeling that the brain has been "altered" to encompass more; and a feeling that one is now using the "whole brain" rather than just a small part. also, one can develop things such as telepathy, clairaudience, clairvoyance, precognition, remote viewing, communication with animals, children, and the failure of timepieces. my friend wants to quit his job, put his bills on hold, and go out on tour. while on tour he wants to educate people on shows (about his life?) and pass out a zine that has testimonials from his friends about how they met him, and what they thought about his gun shot. i never really took into account how much something like this could effect someone, so i guess it's my fault on my end. though, i would like to thank social science for helping me be aware. lately, i've been having a problem with one of my sociology professors. she's been grading my assignments incredibly hard. i did feel a bit at ease after reading about here on ratemyprofessors.com. but these are reasons why i think she doesn't like me: 1. the obvious: i have tattoos and piercings and she just has a problem with that? 2. the hidden: since i'm writing my papers on straight edge, she assumes that i'm against drugs, and since she was a hippy (no really, she was), she is for drugs and so we are on opposite sides. whatever it may be, i'd just wish she wouldn't be a bitch when grading my essays. today i counted how many credit hours i have and will have after next semester as well. basically, i can take 6 credit hours during the summer and then 12 in the fall, or take 3 during the summer and 15 during the fall. either way, i haven't had a semester like that since first semester of freshman year. and that is something that i am soooo excited for. Current Mood: busy Current Music: "Mr. Brightside" by The Killers

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November 9th, 2009

10:50 pm - did not have a case of the mondays today. no time for that. 1. i had my peace corps interview today! you can read about at my blogspot (shortly). 2. i realized today that next week i don't have anymore volunteer work that i have to do. which means i'll have an extra 4 hours added to my days. wtf am i going to do with all that time?? possibly work out more, which has become a great stress reliever for me. 3. i have a crush, and timing is horrible. and so is location. 4. life is good right now. even with the insane amounts of stress and school-work, it's good. 5. i still think you're weak. every last one of you. 6. i've convinced my family to have thanksgiving at my apartment, so everyone is coming to me for thanksgiving! i'm really excited about that. 7. whatever i tell someone else, i have no problem telling to your face. believe it. Current Mood: drained

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October 27th, 2009

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07:05 am - almost the end of october. wow. "The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..." -Jack Kerouac i don't know what i will be doing about my living situation next year. i'm considering paying the extra 200 a month to find a 1-bedroom apartment just so i don't have to put up with anyone's shit. and that way, i can bring my cat to school :D i could afford it, it's just a matter of finding a place that i like that isn't too expensive. i mean, i expect it to be more, just not an assload more. or i can stay at windermere, live in a 4-bedroom apartment, sign a 6 month lease, and just live with 3 random people for the semester. my roommates always seem to piss me off due to their lack of morals and ethics. classes are really hard right now. i have a couple professors that are grading me really really hard resulting in a low grade. i'm going to go and talk to them about that to see what i can do better, b/c seriously, they are grading really really hard. i feel like i try really hard at things, lately, and still seem to not succeed or get the success i was hoping for. i also woke up stressed this morning. stressed and upset? which means today is probably going to suck. but, i am going to do my best at keeping things positive. positive. positive. positive. Current Mood: stressed

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October 5th, 2009

09:39 am - peace corps app (check) finished my peace corps app last night. much more to come. i'm documenting my application process on blogspot if you're interested. peacecorpsjoey.blogspot.com Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: "Flight of the Navigator" by Set Your Goals

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October 1st, 2009

10:12 am - fuck you ball state. i'm sitting in the atrium. skipping french class just jes needed a ride to the gas station at the exit for a business meeting thing. i could've gone to french, but jes never got back to me about needing a ride back and blah blah blah. so i'm skipping french class. so i thought i would be productive during this time. i'm picking out classes for next semester. and i realize that even after the meeting with tomizawa yesterday and getting the OK for doing independent studies for two of my japanese classes, i am still NOT going to be able to major in japanese. ball state's plan to "fit more classes in for students" has backfired right in my fucking face. all of the sociology classes and all of the japanese classes now only fall on tuesdays and thursdays. that means i can have a max of 5 classes a day on tuesdays and thursdays. that means i'd have to take 3 300-400 level soc classes and 2 specific japanese classes AND a 200 level soc class all on the same day. and that won't happen. sigh. so i'm going to have to change my japanese major to a minor. unfortunately. this is very frustrating and very sad. i thought we got it all fixed and then i get a slap in the face. i really wanted that major, damn it. but i will not sacrifice my sociology major for it. Current Mood: cranky

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September 27th, 2009

11:41 pm - new week. refreshed. i'm starting my peace corps application. i hope to have it done by wednesday night (i have a meeting on wednesday with tomizawa sensei regarding course offerings, which will determine if i'm still going to be a japanese major or not. it's both exciting and disappointing). if i don't take japanese anymore, i think i'm just going to take 1 or 2 semesters of other languages. i like the idea of knowing a bit of a bunch of languages. i will never understand my roommates' obsessions with sports. specifically football and basketball. i decided this morning, while in the shower, that when i graduate and leave for the peace corps or leave for pittsburgh (whichever comes first), i will write my mother and father each a letter telling them how successful they were at parents. i guess this would be a good time to mention my plan B. my plan if i don't get accepted into the peace corps. i'm going to move out east. to pittsburgh. it has my heart. i already was job searching there (by there, i mean monster.com). i don't think i'll have a problem with finding one. however, that is only if i don't get into the peace corps. if i do get into the peace corps, plan B will immediately follow my return if: a) i do not get asked to continue my projects and stay for another tour. or b) i do not get asked to work for the corps in other countries. which is a possibility. i'll be keeping a seperate blog documenting my peace corps application process. link ytbd. Current Mood: crazy

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September 22nd, 2009

01:12 am - summary. i've been wanting to write lately. and i never really get the time to do it. and now that i'm tired and forcing myself to write, i can't. --------------------- october edit: 1. oct 15th. bane + edge the movie in indy. holler. 2. where the wild things are. oct 16th. 3. oct 23rd. alternative fall break trip. evansville. sara helsely <3 4. oct 30th. pittsburgh. halloweekend. tattoo convention. my adoptive crew. my loves. ---------------------- there are a good amount of people interested in the body mod club this year. thank god. there is hope. ---------------------- everyone here disappoints me. martin luther king jr once said "there can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love." i've just got too much love to give. ---------------------- i read this guy's blog about him getting a visectamy (spelling) at age 26. he's vegan straight edge. and as crazy has his reasoning is, it works. macxvx.blogspot.com. check it out. ---------------------- i hope to write more this weekend. Current Mood: busy.

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September 12th, 2009

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September 6th, 2009

02:53 pm - gryphon i was in lafayette yesterday to get my neck tattooed. now that i look back on it, the was exactly how it should have gone. getting your neck tattooed is a huge deal, and so was the day. when i was at work that morning, a girl on my team said she was going to get some diamond tattoos at the tattooed heart that day as well. she also said she was bringing lindsay with her. i was like "linsday who?" and she responded with "non-funds senior collector lindsay" and then i knew who it was. and since i've worked there, i thought her to be attractive. aaaand, i guess she thought the same. so later that night we all got dinner in lafayette and watched a movie when we got back. i suppose that would be important if i was super interested in dating someone, but i'm really not. but after our tattoos, we went down to mosey down main, which is where things became so weird. i saw people from my past that i probably could've done without seeing ever again. what i'm talking about is people i worked at papa johns with. and not the good ones like joel ashcraft or beau tague. but hippy rachel, and glow stick twirling joe and kara. and i saw kalysa. i hate her and the drumline for hating me for stupid reasons. i saw one of my emo cousins, joe. i saw sam lemming. ha, i saw will allison who recognized me. it was actually nice seeing him, even though we've talked a whole one time. i saw devon, too. i didn't know if it was him at first though. i texted him. and it was him. and we haven't talked in a year and i really miss that kid. i think he's the one that really got me interested in going into social work and helping teens. i'm glad we're back in touch. it's a good thing. can't stop thinking about how his life is going now. we'll see how it is soon, i suppose. my neck hurts, but my tattoo is so fucking cool. Current Mood: hungry

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September 4th, 2009

06:02 pm - Pre-weekend post. More to come. I have no problem callin people out on things. And if they have a problem with that then they can day their opinion too. But seriously? 1. Don't leave nasty ass dishes in the sink for days, then be puzzled when dishes in the dishwasher are dirty. 2. Don't keep asking for fuckin rides. You do it every god damned day. If you have a late class, then make ride arrangements first. If you're going out at night, then make sur you have a DD. If all your friends want to drink then stay at the place you are drinking at til the next morning. You want to throw it in my face that you'll just drink and drive? Fine, but I'm going to lecture you the next day. Be a fucking adult. Either walk, or realize that you don't have a ride so don't drink. If you don't want to stay at the place you are drinking because it's a stranger's house, then why are you fucking drinking there in the first place? 3. You're going to throw it in my face that I have money? Oh right. That's because I fucking grew up and got a job. I also realized that you can't just go out all the fucking time. I have expensive hobbies. I like nice things. I work har so I can play hard. 4. suck my dick and stop pouting. Current Mood: aggravated

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August 24th, 2009

07:53 am - history repeats itself. yesterday, the sunday right before classes start, i got pulled over. ironically, i got pulled over the sunday before classes started last year, as well. history repeats itself. i had a very very very almost maybe mini-romance with a girl very recently. ironically, last year i had a mini-romance with a girl last year during the same week. how did i end up both times? by myself. history repeats itself. and the inevitable first day of classes start today in only a few hours. and it happened the same way last year as well. history repeats itself. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: "Therapy" by All Time Low

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August 20th, 2009

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August 3rd, 2009

12:23 am - First weekend of august. This weekend I: -moved out of my first apartment. To sum that up, moving sucks. -drove the longest roadtrip I have ever done alone. It was to Pittsburgh. -enjoyed being around straight edge friends. Lovely lovely straight edge friends. -got my head shaved from a makeshift barber. It was fuuun. Basically, I had an awesome weeekend. Still would like some straight edge friends to live in Muncie. That would be really cool, too. Current Mood: cheerful

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July 8th, 2009

01:54 pm - review of: blind date that's right, kiddies. i went on a blind date. do people even do those things anymore? well, it happened. very odd that someone of my standing, pretty much being anti-relationships, went on a blind date. so i suppose i should start from the beginning. how did cold-hearted little joey end up on a blind date... well, monday afternoon i went out to my car. just like a normal day. ready to spend 7+ hours at work, pissing people off by trying to collect money on their debts. except this day was different. when i sat down in my car, i noticed a note under the windshield-wiper. my first response was "rachel was in muncie?" but that was merely a joke, since i know rachel is in new york, and i'm sure for whatever reason she would even be in this hellhole that she would at least knock on my door to say "hi" instead of leaving a note on my windshield. so i grab the note, unfold it, and them in slightly amazed at what the note says. had a name, stephanie, a number, and a winky face ;). basically, it came down to texting, yadda, yadda, yadda, i set up a date for steak n shake for when i got off work tuesday night. we met down in the parking lot. then went to steak n shake for two hours, talking and eating. i suppose this is the part in a blind date story when the person comments on the the other looks like..since, you know, go you into this BLIND! and luckily (luck always seems to be on my side) she was very very attractive. she was a solid 8.5 in my book. could've been a 9.....looks wise. but i've come to realize that even if you're a looker, it's guts that matter most. i would say that the only thing we have in common is the same taste in music. oh, and that we like cats. which, really, is kind of important. but other than that, i spent two hours with one of the most boring people i may have ever met. she's not very intelligent. she's not in school, which isn't that big of a deal..she said she didn't know what she wanted to do so she's just taking a break. but she doesn't really have any life goals. and i'm fucking full of life goals!! i just kind of felt like she had no direction, and really, not very much confidence either. and i guess stuff like that you can't pick up completely on a first date with a stranger. but this is only the beginning of the list of reasons not to get serious with this girl. she's a drinker. which i guess is alright for other people, but i don't want to date one. i suppose i could MAYBE tolerate that, buuut, she drinks and drives, too. i only heard one story about it, but even then, that leaves possibility for other drinking and driving experiences. she couldn't tell me anything she likes to do for fun. she just said "whatever my friends want to do." thus, it seems like she has no hobbies. and when i asked "what are some of your favroite movies" she could think of ANY. or favorite tv shows..but that was b/c she doesn't have cable. then we talked about the internet. buuut she doesn't have a computer. anyone that knows me can see why these things just are adding up to "let's date again" points. i guess it all comes down to personality. while she was friendly, i didn't feel super comfortable around her, like i could be my usual goofy self. i need someone intelligent. i need to be able to not only hold a completely serious conversation, maybe one on politics or media, but also a completely ridiculous conversation, maybe one on hatching a plan to throw waterballoons filled with urine at frat guys (yet never actually doing that). i need a girl who likes video games, movies, reality television, and if she liked comic books too, that wouldn't hurt either. i need someone with a strict moral code. i'm a hero, and i need a heroine. and until that day comes, the world is doomed. or at least my dating scene is. Current Mood: unsatisfied Current Music: "All Over You" by The Spill Canvas

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